Snapchat art I made but didn’t send because I can’t sleep blah
I just want to make out with someone right now that’s what I’m feeling
Somebody come here and make out with me
Pictures of my day today. Warmest sweater (also my most festive) and red lipstick to make me feel powerful and pretty and warm
The snow on my house, from the back
The snow creature I attempted. It was my first snowman which I don’t know how I’ve never made one before I live in MA on Cape Cod and my first year back we had a blizzard with five feet of snow but WHATEVER
It was supposed to be a trex because a plain snowman was too lame but it looks like a dog seal thing so maybe not as lame as I’d thought
Warm and cozy scarf and jacket and snow snow snow
What happens after I come inside my cheeks were so red I was so cold also my hair was a disaster
And now drinking tea in bed because I can’t sleep (it’s decaf)
If you don’t think I’m pretty you’re wrong and I can’t trust your judgment on anything
So I am in the state where I’ve taken an anxiety med and am not sleepy yet but I’m still loopy and I just wanted to let anyone who cares know that I’m probably gonna go to the hospital tomorrow regarding my depression, insomnia, and anxiety. I hate that it’s come this far and I’m feeling out of control.
I don’t want to be admitted but I’m not sure what will happen. I am not suicidal which is a plus.
I’d say I was going to be sick but ha haha ha ha I already am. I feel shitty I am shitty this is so shitty. (Morbid repetitive humor helps me deal I’ve told that joke 3 times tonight.)
Anyway I dunno if you want to message me my ask box is open not that I’m imploring you to do so out of nowhere
I hope everybody else stays happy and healthy, you are all adored, every single one of you who reads this.
It’s 4:13 am and I want to be asleep. I’m tired and sleepy and I may work tomorrow afternoon. But I can’t sleep and I keep thinking I smell pizza and cinnamon rolls mainly because I’m craving those two things. This is so stupid I’m pretty sure I would be much better on the west coast because I suck in this time zone.
I don’t want to keep missing all day because I can’t sleep at night.
things I should not have done tonight: eaten like 30 pixie sticks that was a stupid idea goodness gracious
I’m cold and tired but I can’t sleep and I’m feeling whiny. Somebody come cuddle me. Or bring me food. Anybody have any ideas on something good to watch or read? I’m looking for things with happy endings