thug life? more like hug life. come here
Hello hi hey bonjour aloha hola murhaba I can’t think of any other ways to greet you right now
I am bored because I am in the airport 2 hours before my flight leaves so I am sitting here and sitting here and still sitting here and I’ve got Dunkin Donuts but that’ll be gone soon so yeah
HOWEVER
I am on my way to Orlando, Florida so that is awesome and I’m so psyched I have that song “I’m so excited, and I just can’t hide it, I’m about to lose control and I think I like it” stuck in my head but only those lines because I don’t know the rest
And I will be there for 12 days getting out of the gloomy awful Cape Cod weather though it was really nice today when I was getting here? So yeah
Oh and when I was in the gate getting my Dunkin the cashier told me that I look like a million bucks and that never happens. Well it happens but he was a cute guy around my age and usually it’s like family members or close friends or adorable old people that say it not cute guys around my age
There’s one part of me that’s like:
You should do your work, and then you wouldn’t be so stressed, and you would feel a great sense of accomplishment, and you’d have free time when you’re finished.
But then there’s this other part of me that’s like:
No.
They both make such good arguments.
Life is a strange mystery. I’ve been feeling so good lately and I’ve been out and about and doing stuff, keeping busy. It’s a weird thing after the amount of time I’ve spent stagnate and almost agoraphobic for almost a year now. I feel like a fog is lifting off of me. My anxieties are in control at the moment, I’m no longer having such a problem with my insomnia, I’m not depressed and my moods are stable.
I finished a huge project that I was doing that was causing me a lot of stress due to its magnitude and the deadline I was on. Immediately after passing it in I felt this enormous amount of relief. Since then, I’ve been happy.
Happy. It’s exhilarating to feel this good when I haven’t been good at all for so long. I feel like I have things to look forward to. I’m working, again, and I’m planning for things to come. I’m headed to Florida in 8 days and I’m so excited! I’m going to be there from March 13th to the 25th.
I get to visit old friends and spend some time in the (hopefully) warm weather. I’m going to turn 20 on the 17th while I’m down there, and then I’m going to Playlist Live which ought to be all sorts of awesome.
I dunno. This is kind of an update because I haven’t been posting or even reblogging a lot. Things are good, and getting even better. And I have the smiles to prove it.
